The Midwife From Hell

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So today I have a midwife appointment baby due soon. I will be recording my whole trip. Since this is my last baby I want this to be special. I will be recording these weeks until delivery. Hope you stay tuned in.

The Death Photographer Standing in Aminah’s room the door slowly opened and a head peeked through. There was a Blondie lady standing in between the door smiling asking permission to come in. As I gave her permission to move forward, she stepped in and shut the large door behind her. She introduced herself as the nurse photographer. She walked over to me with a camera around her neck and a bright red folder. She pulled a chair for me to sit down and she sat loosely on the edge of Aminah’s bed. She began to open the bright red folder and out fell two pieces of paper in front of me. I had seemed to catch them in thin air before they hit the floor. Looking up at the nurse while arranging the papers she apologized and moved on to why she was there. The nurse photographer standing in front of me stated that she worked for the hospital and she was there to offer me moments with my daughter completely free of charge a courtesy of the hospital. I was confused ...

The Night Nurse   Old, Pale, and Fragile, The Night Nurse introduced herself by writing her name on the white board in  Aminah’s  room.  She walked right over to  Aminah  and began her routine vitals check.  She looked up at me and smiled. “How is she doing today?” The night nurse asked. “She is the same as the day before”, I replied. I immediately walked over to twin  Akilah  crying for milk in her car seat.  I carefully picked  Akilah  up and out of her car seat and began to playfully bounce her around while pacing the floor of  Aminah’s  room.  The walking around  Aminah’s  room was not pleasing twin  Akilah’s  cries.  Walking over to the single couch sitting in the corner of the room I began to prop  Akilah  for a feeding.  As I began to pull my breast out to feed, I noticed the nurse pulling the curtain surrounding me, allowing me privacy while breast-fee...

Every now and then someone reaches out to me. They have read my blog and feel inspired to share their stories. It would be such a beautiful experience if more women could come from under the bed and not be afraid anymore. Sure discussing experiences with each other always helps the soul but informing all women should be the focus. I have tried to partner with many people but somehow I have been told that my blog is to political. 😕😕😕. At first I though about it for a moment. It may be. Wow, just what the world needs a Negro childbirth politician. I am so tired of having to meet other peoples standards to fit in. I will not change the depth of the content. My message is always the same be smart when birthing at home. Signing off Dreah Louis The Midwife From Hell

I remember that day. That morning I knew I had to let you go. I was so hopeful. I was so faithful. My pain was real. I wanted to un-do it. I wanted to rewind time. I was lonely. I felt like a small child, feelings on the ground. I had to be strong because people were watching, waiting on me to break. I remember the late night drives to the hospital just to see you lay there, breathing but not alert. My heat broke every time I left your room and couldn't take you home. Deep down I knew the nightmare would eventually end but I never knew you were my sacrifice to wake up. I remember when your father was not strong enough to see you the way you were but I had to be. I was still your mommy. I hated not being able to be with you for 24 hours of the day. I have no idea the things they did to you  when I wasn't around. The bad new never stopped. I felt the doctors were so tired of comforting me that their support began to diminish when the medical charges continued to rack up. You ...

As I sat in Jefferson City, Missouri for the Malpractice insurance bill 2189 I got to hear other stories of home birth disasters that happened in Missouri. The old couple sat next to me and my husband that day in Rep Franklin's office before the introduction of the bill was about to be heard on the floor. We properly introduced ourselves to each other in front of Rep Franklin's assistant in her small office. It was indeed unfortunate that we had to meet under those circumstances.  When it was time to appear on the floor to share our birth stories, the old couple lead with their story first. The husband sat in a chair beside his wife and allowed her to tell the story that they had drove for a while to say. The mother said that her daughter was unable to be there to tell her birth story because she had died the day that she gave birth. Their grandson had died also. The old woman also told the counsel of representatives that the midwives in charge of delivery and the care for he...

June 17, was the day of celebration for Aminah's passing. I just sat back really sad thinking about all the memories of that day. That even has shaped my life in so many ways. I am thankful for the years that have followed that day. Oh how I miss you so, sweet Aminah, I feel your pretty presence everyday. -Love Always,    Your beautiful Mother      Dreah Louis

Don't just let your midwife slide you the Informed Consent form and not go over it. You would be surprised a lot of midwives do this. Informed Consent  is a process for getting permission before conducting a health care intervention on a person. A  health care provider  may ask a patient to  consent  to receive therapy  before providing it. How many women have had their midwife discuss with them their disclosure? The reason why I ask this question is because women are being processed for candidates for home birth but have not passed the health care assessments to be able to fulfill a potential spot for a desired home birth.  Believe me what I say when I say, woman choose to home birth because we want to birth away from hospital technology and get back to the basics of natural birth. That is still my theory today but I must say you can have a natural birth in a hospital setting.  I am not completely against home birth but I am for...

Research, Research, and more Research we all do it. We research anything we want to know when we need immediate answers to questions that we are unsure of. The question is how much research is enough when deciding to homebirth? The answer to this question is that you can never stop researching your midwife and all the attributes of homebirth. When choosing to homebirth of course all women are exciting about the idea of doing something different something out of the "norm" but in all reality you have to be prepared if your home birth does not go the way you plan. There are many steps that you can take to ensure that you can experience the best quality home birth but beware that here are still may risk associated with a home birth rather if it's planned or not planned. One of the problems with researching home birth you can do a risk assessment on your home birth but you can not predict the day you will go into labor and you definitely can not predict how long you will be...