The Midwife From Hell

I remember that day. That morning I knew I had to let you go. I was so hopeful. I was so faithful. My pain was real. I wanted to un-do it. I wanted to rewind time. I was lonely. I felt like a small child, feelings on the ground. I had to be strong because people were watching, waiting on me to break. I remember the late night drives to the hospital just to see you lay there, breathing but not alert. My heat broke every time I left your room and couldn't take you home. Deep down I knew the nightmare would eventually end but I never knew you were my sacrifice to wake up. I remember when your father was not strong enough to see you the way you were but I had to be. I was still your mommy. I hated not being able to be with you for 24 hours of the day. I have no idea the things they did to you  when I wasn't around. The bad new never stopped. I felt the doctors were so tired of comforting me that their support began to diminish when the medical charges continued to rack up. You ...

I wonder how many women lost their baby to home birth and are just not speaking out about it? I wonder how many are blaming their self for the tragedy? I always wonder why the women decide to keep quiet. Actually, I know why they keep quiet. I remember when I first decided to open up about loosing my daughter to home birth, I remember how cruel women were to me. I was called every name in the book. I remembered getting so much hate mail. I remember so many women sharing my blog post in other groups talking bad about me. I remember all of that and if your not strong enough to deal with that, I can see why a woman would opt out to not share that tragedy. Maybe the women feels as though it was their fault. Maybe the midwife was able to brainwash her client making her feel like she did everything she could to save their baby.If you had your baby at home and something happened to your baby I just would like to let you know that all options were not exhausted. I started this blog to educat...

I dedicate this chapter of my blog to the Mid-witch. I know your probably thinking what is a Mid-witch? A Mid-witch is a Midwife Witch. This Mid-witch is a woman that happens to be a midwife by profession but a witch by night. This woman studies birth, women, and babies but also does witch craft. I know most people reading this right now probably think that this is a joke but I am being so serious. The Mid-witch is sent out all over the world to do dirty work. I always wondered to myself. Did The Midwife From Hell that I chose, did she do what she did on purpose? Maybe she was jealous of my me because I was having twins. Maybe she sabotaged my birth on purpose. Maybe this isn't the first time she has done this. Maybe she did what she did because she knew that she was going to get away with it. The Mid-witch relies more on wit and faith when attempting to delivering babies. The Mid-witches worships the devil. Mid-witches don't use common sense. These women will do magic, put you...

I just would like to take time out of my day to say FUCK YOU SHANNON ANTON. They need to replace your ditsy ass. How the fuck are you in Charge of Accountability. FUCK YOU RACHEL W President of the Missouri Midwife Association. Its sad that a crock of shit ass midwives are in charge. These women are so shitty it's ridiculous. Signing off Dreah Louis

Dr. Amy Tutuer and your gossiping ass followers can kick rocks!!!!!! All you women do is sit in a damn forum all day and fucking gossip you cunts. In all reality, Dr. Amy, your a licensed coochie doctor, good for you. You don't need a fucking license to know how to live with a damn vagina. Your license and medical background don't make you better. The truth of the matter I'm more equipped to talk about Home Birth than you. I wanted to write a little reminder to your admin or security doctor friend. Primary Care Doc. She can kick rocks too. Tell her to gett off your fucking nuts. DREAH LOUIS, Get use too me you will be seeing me often

I made a complaint to Ameren UE (the electric company) and got an answer back within 24 hours. On the other hand I made a complaint to NARM (North American Registry of Midwives) about the death of my twin daughter and years have gone by and still waiting to this day.

So many women across the world are deciding to home birth. They don't know anything about home birth and how dangerous it can be. Most women start researching the internet about home birth. They start watching home birth videos, they go to home birth blogs, they read books, the follow prominent famous midwives, they follow actresses and celebrities that have home birth. This is where women will get their information about home birth. Sad and dangerous all at the same time. No matter who's home birth story you follow no home birth will be the same. No one should ever trust a midwife alone at home to birth their baby. I write so many post in regarding home birth safety but I really think women are just more interested in my stupid decision to birth twins at home. I wish more women shared the education aspect of my blog instead of just the home birth story.  I am so over the fact the women feel as though I made a bad decision when choosing to home birth twins. Midwives hear in Ame...