The Midwife From Hell

Today is the anniversary of Aminah's passing. This day 4 years ago I was overwhelmed with an undeniable feeling of regret. I felt alone and troubled. My soul just would not rest. In the picture above is Twin Akilah. I always upload pictures of her because this is what Aminah looks like.She was an identical twin. I feel that no matter what I can honestly say that I love Aminah and will continue to dedicate this blog to her in every way possible. Sometimes I look at Twin Akilah and just cry because she is so special and smart and she is missing her other part but everyday I show her pictures and remind her who Aminah is. I tell her what happened and I tell Akilah why she is special. I tell her your a twin!!!! I tell her she is so special that God had to make two. I have mourned for so long today is a Celebration. We will honor you our special Ibeji Holiday. We Love you Aminah.

Dear Midwife Joann Falcon, I don't know if you remember me but I chose you as my midwife and you failed me. I chose you as a midwife and you mislead me. I chose you as a midwife and I paid you, even bought all the supplies that you suggested. I trusted you and you failed me. Mislead and ignored me. I chose to talk about my Home Birth disaster even after I knew that I would be ridiculed. I took that risk. I just want the world to know I will never stop showing your face. Yes, your face. The face of the midwife that stood me up at my birth and ran after my baby died. Never made a visit, never sent any flowers, and never sent your condolences. I guess you felt like you didn't owe me that. I guess you felt you didn't owe my daughter that but because of that I will never stop talking about you. I will never stop mentioning your name as the midwife from hell. That's exactly what you are. I hope that one day you will consider what you did and how messy you were and ...

The Night Nurse   Old, Pale, and Fragile, The Night Nurse introduced herself by writing her name on the white board in  Aminah’s  room.  She walked right over to  Aminah  and began her routine vitals check.  She looked up at me and smiled. “How is she doing today?” The night nurse asked. “She is the same as the day before”, I replied. I immediately walked over to twin  Akilah  crying for milk in her car seat.  I carefully picked  Akilah  up and out of her car seat and began to playfully bounce her around while pacing the floor of  Aminah’s  room.  The walking around  Aminah’s  room was not pleasing twin  Akilah’s  cries.  Walking over to the single couch sitting in the corner of the room I began to prop  Akilah  for a feeding.  As I began to pull my breast out to feed, I noticed the nurse pulling the curtain surrounding me, allowing me privacy while breast-fee...

I wonder how many women lost their baby to home birth and are just not speaking out about it? I wonder how many are blaming their self for the tragedy? I always wonder why the women decide to keep quiet. Actually, I know why they keep quiet. I remember when I first decided to open up about loosing my daughter to home birth, I remember how cruel women were to me. I was called every name in the book. I remembered getting so much hate mail. I remember so many women sharing my blog post in other groups talking bad about me. I remember all of that and if your not strong enough to deal with that, I can see why a woman would opt out to not share that tragedy. Maybe the women feels as though it was their fault. Maybe the midwife was able to brainwash her client making her feel like she did everything she could to save their baby.If you had your baby at home and something happened to your baby I just would like to let you know that all options were not exhausted. I started this blog to educat...

I dedicate this chapter of my blog to the Mid-witch. I know your probably thinking what is a Mid-witch? A Mid-witch is a Midwife Witch. This Mid-witch is a woman that happens to be a midwife by profession but a witch by night. This woman studies birth, women, and babies but also does witch craft. I know most people reading this right now probably think that this is a joke but I am being so serious. The Mid-witch is sent out all over the world to do dirty work. I always wondered to myself. Did The Midwife From Hell that I chose, did she do what she did on purpose? Maybe she was jealous of my me because I was having twins. Maybe she sabotaged my birth on purpose. Maybe this isn't the first time she has done this. Maybe she did what she did because she knew that she was going to get away with it. The Mid-witch relies more on wit and faith when attempting to delivering babies. The Mid-witches worships the devil. Mid-witches don't use common sense. These women will do magic, put you...

As I sat in Jefferson City, Missouri for the Malpractice insurance bill 2189 I got to hear other stories of home birth disasters that happened in Missouri. The old couple sat next to me and my husband that day in Rep Franklin's office before the introduction of the bill was about to be heard on the floor. We properly introduced ourselves to each other in front of Rep Franklin's assistant in her small office. It was indeed unfortunate that we had to meet under those circumstances.  When it was time to appear on the floor to share our birth stories, the old couple lead with their story first. The husband sat in a chair beside his wife and allowed her to tell the story that they had drove for a while to say. The mother said that her daughter was unable to be there to tell her birth story because she had died the day that she gave birth. Their grandson had died also. The old woman also told the counsel of representatives that the midwives in charge of delivery and the care for he...

I didn't want to do this because Rachel asked me not to. I actually think it's way over due. Below is an email that was sent from Rachel Williston. She sent me this email after NARM informed me that there was going to be no punitive action against Joann Falcon. More education was the verdict. The email below was sitting in my email inbox in october just out the "blue". I sent in the requested information and you know what happened after that.                                       NOTHING I even emailed both Rachel and Shannon back and they have not returned my email. On Saturday, October 4, 2014 10:57 PM, Rachel Williston < godsmidwife@gmail.com > wrote: Hi Andrea, I see from your blog that Congratulations are in order! I am very happy for you.  Our Missouri Midwives Association Board has decided there needs to be more in depth follow up on the recom...

I remember when I was pregnant the midwife would set up visits in a few different places in my city. Sometimes she would set up at an old friends house and have all her visits there. The next time the visit would be in a hotel conference room. When I became farther along the visits would be held at my house. During the time of my pregnancy with the twins Joann would give me lists of things to be purchased for the home birth. Sometimes is was different herbs and supplements. At other times it was the birthing pool and all the equipment that comes along with the pool. Lets not forget to mention the birthing kit. The birthing kit including things that would be need on the day of the birth. Every time Joann came to visit me I gave her money. I can recall writing receipts for $300 for every visit.Some of money covered items needed like the hearing test and the blood work for newborns to test for abnormalities. When it all came down to it I probably ended up spending over $6,000 for items ...

When you type in the simple word, "Home Birth" below are the links and information that is available. There is a problem with this. The problem is that when most women gather their information regarding home birth. The disaster stories are hidden under rest of the home birth information. When women are planning to home birth they do not search home birth disasters because in their mind they are not preparing for a disaster. Google search can misrepresent home birth in many ways. Google can make home birth appear safe in all aspects, it hides criminal midwives, and it most definitely hides the risk assessments. Yes, Yes, Yes, it is always up to the parents to do the research regarding home birth and boy let me tell you that is a lot of research. There will be nothing that can prepare you for something like the midwife being late or not showing at all to the birth. There will be nothing that can prepare you if you chose an uneducated midwife. So, Please let your search...

I have included the letters that I received after my daughter Aminah passes away. I actually received these letters on May 24, 2014. It took a whole year to file a complaint with the North American Registry of Midwives. They made sure that I received the letter on my twins birthday. I felt like that alone was a slap in the face. Please view my new website www.themidwifefromhell.com

I sit back and browse the Internet. This evening I decided to type "Home Birth Disaster Stories" into my computer and I was so disgusted. I just don't want to continue to be mad about the near death stories and actual death stories that I read about but if your not mad enough about it then nothing will change. I just can't believe the number of women and babies that are continuing to die all in the name of a "home birth". Home Birth has became more than a trend. It's becoming a way of live even though babies are dying or have had an near death experience. I was stupid for my decision to home birth and yes my stupidity cost me my daughters life. I think to myself to this day how did I trust someone that I really didn't know to come to my home to deliver my babies on time? I beat myself up a lot about it. What's done is done. Now I feel like I have to warn women who may not know about the risk that here are really taking even though I may be ridicu...

BEWARE OF THIS MIDWIFE THIS MIDWIFE TOOK MY MONEY AND DIDN'T SHOW UP TO MY BIRTH AND WHEN MY BABY WAS ON LIFE SUPPORT IN THE HOSPITAL WE DIDN'T SEE HER ONE DAY. MY BABY DIED AND SHE DISAPPEARED. SHE DIDN'T SEND ANY FLOWERS AND SHOW AND CONDOLENCES, OR HELP PAY FOR THE FUNERAL COST. I HAVE BEEN HIT WITH MEDICAL BILLS THAT I WILL NOT ABLE TO PAY. I HAD TO CREMATE MY DAUGHTER AND I PAID THE MIDWIFE TO MUCH! I FILED A COMPLAINT, SHE WAS SANCTIONED BY HER PEERS. SHE DIDN'T SHOW FOR HER HEARING AND SHE PUT OUT A RESTRAINING ORDER ON MY HUSBAND AND I. SHE MADE ME PAY FOR MY MEDICAL RECORDS AND I HAVEN'T SEEN HER SINCE. WELCOME TO THE MIDWIFE FROM HELL! IT ABOUT TO GET REAL GOOD. Dreah Louis -OnePissedOffMom